the fricking surgery

Today was the big day: surgery! I was so scared and nervous that I could hardly sleep last night. When I stepped into the surgery room I felt so weird and kind of helpless. Everything in there scared me. I don’t like surgeries. I haven’t had many in my life yet(thank god!) and the only one I can remember 100% was a tooth surgery…a very bad one…actually 2 very bad ones. Geez, I do have a hard life 😉

Ok, let’s get back on track now:

So I was in the room and was told to lay down but then I saw 2 (huge) syringes. And I was asking the nurse if they would use those evil needles on me…and she said yes!!! I was so shocked. Then the nurse left the room and I seriously had tears in my eyes. I HATE needles! I started to feel dizzy and finally laid down on the operating table because I felt like passing out. Fortunately I didn’t….or maybe unfortunately!

Then the doctor came and started some small talk. I don’t even remember what she said I was so busy not to start crying and panicking. And then I saw her reaching out for one of those syringes.

And she seriously put those two gigantic things into Jule’s teeny tiny little foot with a SMILE!!. It hurt  and burnt LIKE HELL. And then those 2 evil persons started talking about scalpels and sawbs*faint alert!!*…I don’t remember how long my trip to hell lasted but I was surely glad when it was over!

I had to stay at the doctor’s for a while after the surgery and they gave me painkillers.(probably the nicest thing they’ve done to me today!).

I felt a bit weird when I left the doctor’s (the meds might have started working) but I had to pull it together as I still had to drive back home again. But that was easier said than done. (We’ve had quite some snow chaos and storms here during the last few days and it is not easy to get around especially in a car. But I had to use it today to get to my lovely appointment in hell)

Anyways, on the way back I got stuck in the snow. Of course it had to happen to me TODAY! It was not easy to drive with the pain in my foot and then I had to use my feet to get the fricking snow out of the way. My joy was priceless!

Thank God I parked next to the train station and there was some worker from the “Deutsche Bahn”(German Railways) coming my way after 10 minutes of hard work. He helped me out of there and I was good to go again after another 10 minutes.

I was glad when I was home and could relax…and go to sleep because the meds made me very tired. For this reason…must.go.to.sleep.now.zzzzzzzz

the holy foot

some annoying snow on our patio

looks nice though doesn’t it?

I did not sign up for this!

I’ve been to the doctor’s this week to examine my skin for cancer. My family has quite a cancer history so I thought it would be a good idea to go to that examination.  If you are under 35 you need to pay for that procedure which is ridiculous as also people under 35 might get skin cancer! So I paid 35€ in total and waited for like 40 minutes until it was my turn. While I was waiting in the examination room I was forced to look at all of those terrible pictures and information posters about skin cancer. Dudes, I almost threw up and I was so scared that I even thought of leaving the doctor’s office.

on toe

skin cancer on forehead

These pictures are harmless compared to the ones I had to stare at for 40 minutes. Eventually the doctor came and of course she found something on my skin which needs to get removed soon. AAAAHHHH!!

So I’m gonna have surgery on my foot on monday morning. AAHHHH again!! I did not sign up for this when I came to Germany! I am scared as hell but I know it’s a good thing they found something that early on my skin.

As the doctor said “Cancer proceeds fast,especially if it is on the foot so we should remove it very soon.” So they are gonna remove a mole and some skin around it on my left foot. And because I’m leaving for Finland again a few days after the surgery I can’t get stitches but they will have to close the wound with some strips or whatever which is gonna open up easily and cause more pain. I wish the doctor would have just shut up! I’m gonna survive I know that. I’m just gonna be very grumpy and will need lotsa attention! 😉

Anyways, I advise everybody to go and get their skin checked for cancer…especially people that have 50000000 moles like me. It is by far the most common cancer in the world, accounting for 75% of all cancer diagnoses which is creepy! So please go get your skin checked because the sooner something is found the greater the possibility to heal it!